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Finding My Voice

A True Story About Domestic Violence in Thailand & Expat Community Silencing

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A TRUE STORY

Follow the author's heart-wrenching story about her domestic violence experiences with her Thai ex-partner and the secondary trauma of not being believed, being pressured to stay silent by some of her expat community, and being gaslit into questioning her reality. It's about a mother fighting to protect herself and her two babies from psychological abuse during the COVID pandemic lockdown on a remote island in Thailand. In this raw memoir, Juanelle courageously breaks years of enforced silence to share her journey from survivor to advocate.

"Did it really happen?" "Was I being dramatic?" For years, she dealt with intrusive thoughts and feelings of confusion and betrayal. Silence wasn't protecting anyone—it was eroding her authenticity. Writing became her lifeline, forcing her to trust her perceptions again.

Psychological abuse, such as threats, intimidation and manipulation, has been legally classed as domestic violence in Western countries since the 1980s, with Thailand following suit in 2007. Despite this widespread legal recognition, many people still don't realise that psychological abuse is domestic violence and can result in legal proceedings. The taboo nature of this subject perpetuates misinformation within uninformed communities. When communities silence victims to avoid 'drama, ' they enable abusers who learn that there are no social consequences for psychological abuse. Victims are re-victimised and prevented from accessing appropriate help.

Finding My Voice is more than a survival story—it's a roadmap for recognising the signs of psychological abuse, understanding your legal rights, and proving that speaking your truth is the path to authentic healing.

From Bangkok to remote islands, expat women face unique vulnerabilities. Juanelle's story exposes the hidden patterns that put women at risk and reveals how knowledge and self-advocacy can save lives.

Because ultimately, your safety and healing matter more than anyone else's comfort.

©2025 Juanelle Louise Holl (P)2025 Juanelle Louise Holl
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I believe this story can help save lives. Everyone should read this—especially those who think silence is safer than truth.

Powerful Story

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I appreciate the author's courage and honesty in telling her story. I've spent my career living as an expat, so I can appreciate the vulnerability she felt. It was powerful to hear her pain coming through as she narrated. This is important reading for anyone considering a cross-cultural marriage whose partner comes from a culture with clearly defined gender roles and male dominance. So thankful Thailand is progressive in its treatment of domestic violence cases.

Important Read for Understanding Thailand

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"Finding My Voice" is an incredibly raw and profoundly moving true story that bravely confronts the complexities of domestic violence. I liked most was the author Juanelle's unflinching honesty in detailing her experiences with psychological abuse and the added trauma of being silenced and gaslit by her expat community in Thailand. This memoir is a powerful testament to the liberating and healing power of speaking your truth.

A Courageous and Indispensable Voice

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I love to hear these real stories, and this is a doozy. I kind of dream about living abroad, but I always wondered about the dark side. Well-written. I enjoyed it.

Super-interesting

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"Finding My Voice" is an incredibly brave and profoundly important memoir that truly resonated with me. I was deeply moved by Juanelle's raw honesty in sharing her harrowing experiences with psychological abuse and the added trauma of being silenced by her expat community. I particularly appreciated was how the book shines a crucial light on the insidious nature of gaslighting, validating the feelings of anyone who has been made to question their own reality. This memoir powerfully illustrates that true safety and healing begin when voices are finally found.

A Powerful Call to Break Silence

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